And so it begins...

I hope you aren't scared off right away by my corny blog name. Tell me you get it. Pack and Write. Black and White. A world colored in .... okay, now you are groaning. But if you already know me, you're familiar with this type of humor. If you don't know me, well buckle up.

Things you need to know:

• I'm a sassy female. Mid 20's. Midwest.
• I've been to 5 countries outside of the U.S. and one of those was a Spanish speaking country in which I lived/studied/traveled for 5 months.
• I graduated with a BA in Film Studies and a minor in Spanish in 2007.
• I've spent the past three years doing regular jobs when I wasn't on film sets. Yes, I'm fancy pants. ;)
• I'm looking to get paid to travel and be creative.

If you can help with the last one, please, wait no more. Send me a line. But if it's about needing a benefactor to a huge amount of money in Such and Such foreign country.... uh, contact my secretary. ;)

I have reached that point now where I am beginning to think my talents are being squandered. And it makes me look to that little piece of pie in sky that I said I'd never in a million years touch: Grad School. Oh. Boy.

Here's the thing. School was fun while it lasted but I was sooooo happy to be out. Three years later, I've had some really cool experiences: working on big-name movies, small movies, dancing for an Indian wedding in New Delhi, working on my scriptwriting, hanging out with well-known people etc. etc. I'm sure there are other cool things I can't remember, not due to any substances, but due to my own poor memory. Hence, being a writer.... If I write it down, it will jog my memory later.

So I am now looking at Grad School as a possible avenue. I won't say I've exhausted every other option and I won't say I have the money for school. But I will say I have the desire to write and be critiqued so that I can get much better.

I look back on my 60 page Honors Undergrad Thesis and think, "Man, I was smart!" I want to be able to say, "Man, I AM smart!" I want to be able to feel as if I am using my brain muscles and that I will allow myself more opportunities by jumping into the pool of school.

But there is a lot to consider. Cue another bullet list:

• What is my career goal?
• How will getting a MFA in English (Creative Writing?) help me?
• Where will I get the money for this?
• Will I use the program at the Uni in town or at my Undergrad?
• How will I make money? (How many hours can I work while I take classes?)
• Where will I live?
• Am I really ready to commit 2 (3?) years to a Masters? (I would honestly love to have a PhD if only to be a "Doctor" ;) But was advised by a friend currenly on that track, PhD is more for people who want to teach... I don't think that's where my passion lies.)
• More questions that make my head explode.

It's not an easy decision but at least I have until January to make my application for the Fall 2011 semester. It is and isn't a lot of time. Maybe I should take up playing the lottery again so that the decision can be made for me. Win lottery=Grad school paid.

Oh, I'll accept donations too ;)

There you have it. An incredibly talented (and humble) gal with an incredibly difficult decision ahead of her. Nothing ventured, nothing gained. And who knows where the winds of chance and time will take me? Waiting for the next (all expenses paid) adventure!

Peace!
-D